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It's hard being hopeful when you're filled with sorrow. It's hard to mourn something that's lost when at the same time, your heart is filled with joy about some other. At times, I feel bi-polar. So pleased and comfortable, yet in mourning for the loss of the dream I felt I was living and hopeless because of. There was a piece of music that touched off some internal struggles this evening. It's an improv'd piece by a friend of a friend. It's surreal. It fits all emotions, all my thoughts....

Just wanted to take a few minutes and let everyone know that I'm feeling much better. I've done a lot of soul searching and have realized that I'm ok if I want to be ok. Don't misconstrue that as me saying I've conquered depression because I "think" that I can do it. It's not that, it's just that I saw what I needed to do to get better and I did it. Problem is, I replaced those things with Emily and I just got lazy. Now we're back to not...

the raider (zane) made it on espn.com's college football home page. well at least his hair did. then i found this gem in the story. i can hear him now "what the hell?"....

it's amazing how God picks you up when you're down. this morning i prayed "god, ease my pain." as i'm looking through the shows on my tivo, my eye is caught by my TD Jakes folder of shows. I'm a big fan of the Bishop and always enjoy and learn from his messages. The past two days, he gave an amazing message about potholes focusing on the story of how David was moving the Arc but hit a pothole. cynicism tells me that this was just a coincidence, but when...

For those of you who knew what you wanted to do and went to college knowing it, i hate you. For the rest of us who went to college only to pursue a degree we're not even interested in, I ask for your thoughts and prayers. On Friday, I'll be visiting the texas culinary academy to see if it's a place i want to continue my learning and spend the next 15 months. Obviously, this is a big step and something I'm not getting a lot of sleep over....

everyone should wish their computer manufacturer were as smart as His Steveness. So what did Steve do instead? Well, it's often difficult to tell, with the man nearly always being at least one step ahead of the rest of us. But if I'm interpreting the jet trail correctly, his plan reads something like this: Think about what would have happened if, prior to the launch of the iPod, Steve had called in all the record labels and proposed the iTunes Music Store. When the labels got done laughing, they would...