no, i'm not where i want to be nor am i doing what i want to be doing, lately. it's not, however, that i don't speak up or that i give in to the wishes of others, it's that i don't know where i want to go or what i want to do, and even when it occurs to me that i'd rather be somewhere else, i never know where that somewhere else is. at least, i never know of a feasible somewhere else.
i need new.